The blog::::

2026,09,04

maybe i should start an "its finally friday" series, because i swear to god i dont have any time during week days to write here,,

appreceating my last year, i sure am, i feel less of a kid and more of a human who can say their own opinion and make their own choices without feeling childish

i cried yesterday,

life is nothing, stressing about "problems",, nothing has meaning you know so, you should just st look at the red paper star you bought on christmas, cry to songs, argue with people, nothing is pointless until you dont think it is

what i am trying to say is that (and i know this sounds awfully nieche, especially if this is the first thing you read among the things i wrote) you should live how you want and give meaning to everything you want to,,, sitting in my bed laughing with your sibling, screaming while playing games, creating a web out of movies you can connect to eachother, building a giant paper sword, eating in the bathtub, dancing in your parents bedroom when noone is home

animals by alex g,,,, jake gyllenhaals first pets name was rosie too



its insane how making your website overwhelmingly stuffed can give you more page views,, interesting stuff going on here

2026,08,29,

doing commissions wouldnt be so bad considering i was about to begin the procedure when tumblr blocked me,,,,

ill give it a try after i graduate, the only thing i need to really think about is if i should learn how to draw furries, since i wouldnt mind drawing nsfw (already doing it for my own pleasure) and maybe furries would be a good asset if i want to make more money,, i maybe have to up my game too, make myself more confident in my art

honestly i dont have a clue how this works, my sister said deviant art would be a good place to start so i might just do that (update: checked it out, the whole place is infected with ai,, i aint posting there)

ALSO I AM DONE WITH THE SONIC PLUSHIE, its been so long since i crocheted anything so i am rellay proud of myself for finishing the lil hog in less than two days, WITHOUT a pattern!!!!! hell yeah

2026,08,28,

i have i a feeling i wont be giving as much attention to my lurk as in summer vacation, when school starts

by the way, if you are a 12th grader, do you also feel you have the world,,, i feel so alive knowing that school isnt forever and i am so excited for this change,,,,, i als feel like i will be appriciating this schoolyear more since its my last time reliving it

its like when you break out from a time loop (or survive endless 8), im just excited to see what will happen

well i am not excited to study my ass off, but the price of freedom is steep (haha get it?)

2026,08,24

does anyone dislike dogs because they rely on you too much?

well maybe not dislike but im scared of letting them down, because i know i wont be able to fully devote myself to them,,, is this a case of attachment issues?

i had times i let people down so badly i couldnt deal with it without shutting everything and everyone out for a year, but what does that have to do with dogs

im such a loner it makes me sad,,, you know when you fantasize about having friends over or hanging out with them in the city

set up my wii and realized ill only play on it with my sister and its not like thats a bad thing but man im a mess

i might not show it but i too need people in my life and i dont even know why im venting,,, soon ill be wishing summer vacation never ended

and i am too greedy thank you

2026,08,21,

mom can we have brokeback mountain...

we already have brokeback mountain at home

cowboys:....

2026,08,18,

why is everyone cooler than me

ok who am i kidding i dont mind living the way i do,,, im just too lazy to change

2026,08,15,

been to a relatives birthday (those big ones with long lost family members you see every 5 years), and had a chat with my cousin, who is a huge video game nerd,,

we talked about consols, good trading deals, exchanging games,,, and after i while i wanted to bash about my modding skills to him (considering my homebrewed vita),, i should have seen it coming he -as a german boy- is very much against it

i feel kind of down since i didnt make that cool older cousin impression on him,,,

anyways why is that, that for example in germany, physical copies of games are so much cheaper than in the balkans, because i swear to god i would not homebrew anything if i could get my hands on goods for cheap

second hand stuff is cool, dont get me wrong, but like getting a copy fresh and untouched has its own vibe, its different

i tried to explain this to my cousin while rushing out of the crappy restaurant (where melancholy hour just hit and everyone was crying and dancing around) while outscreaming the villages only singer performing in the room live,, but my german skills failed me and so i got called a lame hacker

not one of the best moments in my newly found adulthood

(good news for my sister though: the cousin is lending her dokidoki next wednesday)

2026,08,12,

first things first i just found out its slimeccls birthday, so i wish him an amazing one,,,

second its midnight and me and my sister are working on a sonadow animatic i drew this afternoon

third important, very important information: despite putting blinkies on the home page ill still update the blinkies here for good measure

thats all

2026,08,11,

so i just finished the model kit i got for my birthday, its those wooden mini world boxes you can put between books,,, NOOKs yeah a japan themed nuke

took two days to build in total, to be honest i always get lost with these kinds of projects,, i have an itch to finish them as soon as possible (just like with the bustersword, or my bandai mecha kits) my parents think i should continue my life in this direction, since i enjoy crafting so much,,,, i dont know about that, i sometimes feel i need to do more academic stuff to feel "smart" or slightly useful

anyways, yesterday night it was pure hell connecting the LED lights in the nook, so after i was finished i just came upstairs and to relieve the frustration i got from the lights, i decided to listen to loud acid and finally make my donnie darko tshirt,, turned out pretty awesome if you ask me, ill put a pic on how it turned out, whats only left is to wash it, so the color will be fixed on the shirt

other than these distractions from studying i am just lazing around, doing nothing, sometimes meeting with my grandma or attending relatives birthdays

im just trying not to stress until september comes,,,

(thinking about how fun it would be to make an sos brigade themed page too,,, might do that redirect page thingy, where you can be redirected to anywhere you want to,, although i fear many people dont give a crap about those kinds of things)

2026,08,07,

so i just arrived from camping/jazz fest!!! which was pretty awesome,,

looked at the stamp page, sadly no one really visisted it since i was out of town, but i guess that just how it is, lots of people just look at the main page without exploring the rest,,,

sonic is so much fun to draw

2026,08,05,

i edited sonic on pictures i took:



2026,08,03,

decided to make a stamp collection, so if someone is really desperate to find blinkies (like i was) can just go bananas and collect a bunch of them

im not really planning to organize them, since i think scrolling endlessly and getting nausiaus is part of the fun,,, so to those few souls who pass my lurk and actually take their time to not even read everything but just look around: thanks

find of the day

2026,08,02,

i love that 70% of blinkies is just something like: i live for gay sex, or im gonna cum

2000s must have been crazy, crazy good,,,, (also i saw one that said "heart emoji-i want a divorce/lets get divorced_dove with heart letter emoji, i mean in what situation do you even use that lol) anyways as you can see the blinkies on the left side are some of the few i liked or found extremely funny

and i feel like a genius displaying them like this, i mean look at how well they fit in the backgrounds black column

2026,07,22

My all time favourite AMVs and of course ships, while we are at it..