2026,09,13,

did the thought ever cross your mind, that you might be addicted to porn? because i am having problems deciding, if i just like to feel excited, watch it for anatomy study purposes, doing it out of curiousity, or just am straight up addicted to fantasizing about touching someone

guess who managed to download horrorporn? ,,,,,,,yeah

boyfriend to death is generally not so good,,,, but strade oh god STRADE,, this man i cant, i did the "strade gave you another hole" route yesterday, and holy shit did i hope he would fuck my wound

really thinking about buying ykmet,,, i really need more of strade, and honestly i feel so burnt out, id do anything for some little motivation to get trough school this year

2026,09,11

while collecting new movies to watch, i stumbled upon "birdman" (the person recommending it praised ed norton, and in this family we stand for him as an actor) and my father asked me if i wanted to watch end of watch with him, but i wasnt really in the mood for some brainless action, so i justread some of my to watch later movies out loud, and man, i am not kidding you he jumped up the moment i said bairdman yelling its the best movie every how could he have forgotten about it

really unnecesserally long story short, now i had to see it

it did not disappoint,,, probabbly one of the best movies i watched,, mainly because it reminded me of "the tennenbaums" which i love, and on the other hand it was just pure genius

almost no cuts with seamless transitions for a theater like feeling, totally chaotic setting and dialouges, amazing cinematography, great characters,,,, it really felt like a stage play for me and do i love a good stage play

and i didnt even talk about the message of the movie, which i think was beautifully porttraid, giving a (not so) subtle critique to not only critics, but actors, modern day filmstudos and cinemas, as well as viewers and consumers themselves,,,

to be completely onest it resonated with me on a strange level,

i can only recommend it

2026,09,06

so nighttcrawler huh

after thinking about going to media and communication uni, this movie reminded me why i didnt want to go exactly,,, i think this movie portrays how influencive the media is, and how its just a big business that proffessionals are not scared to abuse to their benefit,,

i dont think i need to explain how beautifully this movie was shot,, the pacing was just perfect, the main character was unique and interesting,,, i really dont have any complaint except i would have loved to see the first artistic shot lou made on the hills

i kept thinking how gyllenhaal looks so strangely like patrick bateman in this movie

2026,09,04,

finally had some time to watch something longer than 40 minutes (you could say im addicted to breaking bad), so today -to max out my freetime usage- i watched zodiac

first off despite the movie being 2 1/2 minutes long, there wasnt a second where i was bored,,, i like crime stories generally speaking, but i rather read them instead of watching movies (well i loved se7en too so thats a half lie), so thats why i had the suspectionthat the movie will slow down after maybe an hour, but to my suprise it did not disappoint and it kept me excited until the very last minute

all in all i am just really glad that i live in a world where movies exist

2026,08,28,

so im playing sonic and the black knight on full speed right now so i wont have to struggle finishing it while in school,,,

other news is that i watched jarhead and the guilty in the last two days, and man do i love how jake gyllenhaal basically cries in every movie hes acting in, he has grown so much to me that i made him on my wii as a mii character

both movies were nerv wrecking for despite being two completely different genres, ok well jarhead had more comedic elements but you cant argue the ending was tragic

the guilty managed to give us heartattacks despite only listening to the story, both movies beautifully shot and executed, and i know,, it may be just me but it is generally really difficult for me to find a movie i dont enjoy in some way, so dont expect bad reviews, especially if jake gyllenhaal is in it

(on a side note, i watched the good girl later at night, i had- well, "highish" hopes for it, but man was the movie really not to my liking, i mean it was just boring, and i know its not an action movie but man it was pretty predictable, at least for me!!!!!)

(((another update: i dont want to make a new block for just saying that: i watched "the day after tomorrow",,,, wasnt really worth it besides seeing gyllenhaal)))

2026,08,25,

decided to start a movie at mignight (after playing sonic rivals),,

i was curious about the mads movie "the hunt" so what better way to screw up my sleeping time than watch it

movies about a teacher who gets accused of molesting kids at his workplace, which is displayed really realistically with parents panicing and kids making up more more lies to add to the "funny" story,, funny thing is i had experience with such cases and this is really how fast things go

honestly nothing that interesting actionwise, so thats why i dont understand why i thought the teacher will go all killer and "hunt" down everyone (was i too tired? the title managed to trick me? i have no idea)

but holy shit was there a sex scene unlike any other i saw before,, mads ass in the open, just a friendly observation for mikkelsen fans

2026,08,23,

about to finish season 1 of breaking bad and MAN the soundtrack is so freaking good

+ pinkman is goated + never knew how meth worked somehow this shit is educational + i got hit with brokeback mountain sadness 1 month later + i am not ready to go back into society and study like i am not going insane + my keyboard is really loud + i need if my wii does not arrive until WEDNESDAY i am going to go crazy

gif of the year holy shit

2026,08,20, (23:48)

continuing my mission of watching mads mikkelsen movies: En kort en lang

amazing, really funny, light hearted, great cinematography, gay: what more can one ask for......mads mikkelsen with messy hair

i am grateful to all the danish people for making movies and starring mads,,, and i am thankful for life has granted me eyes to see art such as this

on a serious note, its been a really long time since i watched something not traumatizing/dark/sad, so this movie was like a breath of fresh air

2026,08,20,

i cant wait for my wii

2026,08,19

he dances perfectly to "one more" by s3rl

2026,08,19,

finished my mp3 refresh, im really glad i still have it after so many years

im like 15 years too late for s3rl, but hes so good i physically cant stop listening to him,,, he didnt lie when he said happy hardcore, i am hardcore happy

also i dont get why we dont talk about teddies shadow looking so increadably funny, i was dying of laughter for like 3 months whenever saw him

2026,08,18

i was afc for a while,,, went to visit some friends in forgotten parts of the earth

in the last two days i watched quite a lot of movies, such as fight club and demolition (again, had to show my friend some good stuff), as well as "i saw the tv glow" and "druk"

i saw the tv glow was really something,, i simply just love how they shot the whole movie, the scenes really did give me a nostalgic and creepy feeling, which is really familiar since i also grew up in big open spaces in rural towns of eastern europe,,, the thing is i sat down knowing the movie is supposedly about transitioning and growing up as a transsexual in closed enviroments

maybe its because i am not trans, or just incredibly numb and dumb, but to be completely honest with you, i drew my own conclusion that stood pretty far off the movies original agenda,,, i connected the events with losing identity and childhood wonder, as well as feeling like growing up is a dull and "inevitable" event, which is close to a tragedy,, once again this might be just me, but i managed to emphasize with this "solution" rather than the queer one,,, of course i had to read and watch an explanation for the trans symbolism too, all in all it was a crazy movie to watch in scorching hot weather, laying on the floor with dogs,,,

after finishing it i listened to the album "taking a break from my phone"

druk was an unfinished movie which we managed to complete after a month,,, i just love mads mikkelsen, i truly love him, as well as the movie,,, honestly it was a pretty decent watch with ups and downs,,, as a student standing right in front of graduating i just wished to be as relieved as the graduates

(not so) sadly my must watch list grew a bit larger, so (very sadly) even though summers almost gone i have to keep going until its time for me to stop fooling around

summers (almost) gone

2026,08,16,

2026,08,15,

finished watching hannibal

the whole ending was simply so beautiful i went zombie mode for the rest of the day and just listened to la dispute and "bloodfest" (mizumono) until i fell asleep, where i dreamt of the ending

i simply cant emphasize it enough, how well made the last half of the 3rd season was,, the whole big red dragin arc was cinematically and storywise so stimulating (to be completely honest, until this part i didnt really like how the series was shot most of the time, but as we got towards the finale, it grew on me)

it has been a while since i was so immersed in a show, that after the last episode i just sat around, fantasizing and replaying scenes in my head (i mean we watched house md, and it was great -one of my favourite shows-, but sady we live in a world where spoilers exist and i lost the war against them)

right now i am watching bloopers and interviews with the cast, as well us cuts that didnt make it

2026,08,13,

went to the cinemas yesterday to watch the donnie darko 25 anniv screening,

it was awesome, especially since i expected to see the same movie i saw 3 times before, but turns out i watched the directors cut all this time, without even knowing about the theatrical cut,,, and honestly i see while many people on the internet prefer the original cut, since it was so much easier to understand than the directors,,,

though i wish they kept some scenes that didnt make it in the end,, anyways it was so much fun watching it in higher quality, better sound, with insanely funny subs in my native language,,, i love going to the cinema to be completely honest, its so much better to laugh at jokes together with others (especially strangers,, it makes me think that even random people can connect)

and in my experience, people are way more respectful in independent/art house cinemas, i really like the community

anyways im on a dvd/console buying frenzy, waiting for my fight club and advent children dvd's,,, and i am really thinking about buying a donnie darko blu ray and a new wii, since i will be moving out soon for university

2026,08,11,

we watched two episodes of hannibal nbc yesterday, and man were they more disturbing than the whole 3 seasons added together, its been a while since i was so grossed out by anything really,,, also i still wonder why i got absolutely no spoilers about the lesbian sex scene,,, ok honestly what will and hannibal got going on is still gayer than 3 minutes of scissoring

cant wait for the second half of the season

update: watched two eps of the big red dragon arc and i have no idea, maybe its just me, but i think the episodes are shot way nicer, than before

2026,08,10,

i managed to convince my family to go watch donnie darko in the cinema (although we saw it twice in the last two months at home,, arranged by yours truly) on wednesday, and man am i excited,, going to make a dd tshirt today, as well as bring a grey rabbit toy with me

also me and my sister have been playing team sonic racing non stop for 3 days now, my mains are silver and shadow,, though i only play with silver when we dilly dally, because shadows speed is better for serious races

another reason why i play this version (besides the characterselection) rather than the psvita version ("sonic racing transformed") is because my vitas only downside is that the left and right buttons are a bit jammed so when i push R for gas, after a while it cant feel the pressure on itself and stops working,,,

and no suprise on that but the music is absolutely amazing as usual,,

2026,08,07,

i went to a jazz fest yesterday, listened to immortal onions (electric jazz), rick astley (just for the sake of him being there), looping doctor (rap jazz fusion) and another lady who sang extremely sad songs

the whole fest was full of snobs, which makes sense because the event cost way too much for one night,, anyways we drank, had fun, and ate hamburgers that were thrice as expensive than in the corner shop

the weather was pure hell though,, couldnt sleep much in the tent, since it felt like i was getting baked alive,

nevertheless i had fun,, and since the trip there was 3 hours for us, i got to listen to acid and punkrock too

2026,08,05,

i finished playing mirrors edge a couple hours ago, and all in all its one of the best games ive ever played,, amazing stage designs, fun to play (at least after i got actually good at it), decent story, good characters, and magnificent graphics and after you finish the main story, its basically a free world for you to roam around in and complete remaining/new missions

i can only recommend it,,,

((right now i am trying to see nomad again, since i didnt see him after noah disappearence))

update: i watched superbad and i mcloved it

2026,08,04

my city opened up a small cinema, so todays plan was to check it out by watcing odyssey

honestly i didnt expect myself to like it or anything, because my taste in movies is,,, well not the best, or at least not something that resonates that well with "modern" movies (or maybe i just had bad luck with them in the last 5 years,,,, i liked marty supreme tho). i didnt really like the movie, i like the story, the movie just wasnt all that for me,,, and did i mention its just me and my opinion

but the mini cinema wasnt so bad

2026,08,04

2026,08,03

its monday and i just wanted to say, relatively speaking how many people do actually like their spotify weekly playlist, if they are even listening to it?,,

because i was pretty excited for every monday, to find some new songs that are similar to the genre i liked at the moment, and i mean like 2 years ago that was the case,,, but now spotify just gives me bullshit,, the songs arent even bad, but they are definetly not based on the genre i am listening to for ex that month

just had to get this off my chest, since it pisses me off a bit

yeah well may that be my biggest problem in life

,,,listening to "pool-stripped" right now, and man did i use to cry to this song in february and i know it got pretty viral too, but man is it a good song

2026,08,03,

always found it funny how in crisis core, despite the worldbuilding and the whole "medievalish" setting, everyone has a flipphone,, like you would imagine a soldier, an elite member of the rich shinra corp to have like some cool comm system (at least i did for a while), so it always cracks me up when zack randomly gets a call and has to yank his flipphone open,,, also shoutout to crisis core for being the only game featuring kunsel

,,,,and heres a pic of icarus giving me head

2026,08,02,

eddsworld zombie episodes reminded me of "shaun of the dead", so what better way to spend my time on a hot evening (after building a couch), than watching the movie

honestly i really like zombie movies (tho i didnt see that many yet), and thinking about how id handle apocalyptic scenerios, so shaun of the dead was a pretty fun watch for me,,, tho i have to be honest, (personally i think) it got kind of boring towards the end, which is fine of course, because i kind of always watch movies with others so we can talk and speculate during not so exciting parts of the movie

so what i am trying to say is that even though i didnt get half of the british jokes, i found it quite funny as well as entertaining

fun fact i learned today: my dad calls this movie cornetto, instead of its real title, and i asked him the reason for that, and apparently he used to work on a cornetto x shaun of the dead campaign where they had to choose scenes from the movie for the advertisement

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

on a really really side note, i just heard about how vitadb was taken down due to some drama, and man did it freak me out, but the very narcisstic people on reddit calmed me down explaining nothing really changed, except downloading homebrew apps wont be so convinient as it was until now and spoiled brats like us should go to hell,,,,, to be honest as long as i have adrenaline and pkgj im fine with any changes, and i am just grateful that i modded my vita last october

really dont get rinns drastic decesion to mess literally with everyone, but look, i am really in no position to either talk or get mad about any of this,,, just freaked me out a little since im still a noob to modding and pirating

2026,08,01,

i know,, im on a roll, i, yes humble me, drank two beers (very important) and watched ANOTHER movie, namely american beauty

you might have noticed that im trying to cover the basics/classics of cinema culture and my journey isnt done yet, oh no, im just getting started

so, awesome movie, came out apprx at the same time as fight club (at least they played them hand in hand in my country), and it kind of got overlooked by the younger generations, despite the two movies basically radiating the same message,,,

i especially loved the iconic rose ceiling part (which i already drew and might upload it on the art page in the next couple of days) and the way the air got more electric as we got to the end, which i also liked very much

i feel it conveyed everyday people and struggles really well,, uhhh yeah



while we are at it i watched demolition this week too and i am HOOKED on the ost

((thinking bout watching american psycho next))

aand me and my sister just started watching season 2 of hannibal (2013) and MAN i cant stop thinking about will and lecter,,,,,,,i really love how action filled the season is despite will sitting in jail

2026,08,01

watched highway (2002) yesterday, honestly im a bit obsessed with jake gyllenhaal right now,, so the main reason for me to even start the movie was just to see him, but man did i like his character. kind of didnt get why jack got mad at pilot for going to seattle,, i mean pilot went out of his way to help him, made money, put up with marissa traveling with them too,,, but somehow it felt like the couple ganged up on him for keeping a little secret, which by the way wasnt even something to get mad about, since jack fucks around all the time and encouraged pilot to get more with the ladies,, the whole outcome was kind of sad, i mean the whole thing with amy felt relatable,, once connecting with someone so deeply that you think about them frequently, just for them to forget about you, like none of the things you held special ever happened

all in all the movie was really bad haha,, except for jake aka pilot, i mean if it wasnt for him i wouldnt have finihed the movie at all

felt really american

2026,08,01 ((not really im just moving every post from the "collection page" to here))

persona 4 appieled to me suprisingly much more, than persona 5 royal

i think the reason is that the topics and the characters were more relatable, well at least for me.. discussing gender, sexuality and relationships, stuff like that

besides that, the setting grew on me too, since i am also living in a small town with absolutely nothing to do. (actually much like yosuke or the protagonist, i too moved here after living in the big city,, except i was only 7 years old when that happened lol)

andd well, as much as i like ryuji, great character (i love him so much) cant make me like the whole game which lacks humour and relatable situations

this sounds like i wasnt obsessed with p5r for over a year, but in fact i was, very much so. persona 4 just hit closer to home is all

im sure persona fans know that p4r is on its way too,,,,

honestly, im not freakishly excited about it, since i just have a feeling that lots of funny conversations will be rewritten to avoid "problemacy" and such,,, and so, i doubt we will be getting the long awaited yosuke romance route either,,

i find it kind of sad that nowadays everything and everyone can be called out for absolutely no reason, which makes me pretty mad, because studios limit themselves to avoid drama and (unecessary) rage among fans

i know im insanely funny

2026,07,31

im so scared of school i promised myself id start studying but knowing myself this wont really happen,,

anyways i got reminded of the la dispute concert me and my dad went to last winter on a friday night. it was so freaking cold but once we entered the ship (in which the concert took place) it got really heated. i remember how amazing it was to finally feel music i like resonate through my body, i dont know about you -readers- but im more of a watching and head nodding type of concert person (of course i dance like an idiot in my room), probably because i get so excited watching the band actually perform and do their best on the stage, while visibly enjoying themselves

so even "vs self" played as a side band, and man were they awesome,, like the saying goes, everything sounds better live

people were jumping off the small stage, fighting and whirling going crazy, the athmosphere was just amazing

the setlist mostly consisted of their new album, but la dispute played some of their most known songs too, thats why i didnt expect my favourite, "andria" to play. but they did perform it and it was the best thing ever

sooo other memorabe things are for example jordans monolouge talking about community and things like people growng apart in this modern world, and well i still think about it

this whole report turned into a big pile of nothing but me writing incomplete sentences

the only thing i regret about this night was that we didnt buy tickets for the drum and bass concert that started right after our concert

(this pages bg IS actually a pictzre taken in the boats concert hall)

2026,07,27

watched a couple of eddsworld videos yesterday, since the animatics got to me and man is it goofy as hell and nostalgic,, so far as i watched tom is my fav, but only because i really like how he only has two seperate eyes instead of a line when he is suprised

sadly i know that after edds death his design will change, so i guess i just have to keep watching and when drawig him just keep his original design.

2026,07,27

im listening to 2010s hits, since i need to compansate this feeling of growing up, and the world getting duller and duller every year.

aside the depressing part, the nostalgia i get from listening to for ex. "your love is my drug" or "i love it" (and basically any avicii song) cures my soul, and as corny as that sounds its true.

2026,07,23,

just finished DearS and im quite happy with the ending.. though im kind of sad the anime couldnt explore the DearS world a bit more,, I simply loved the character designs as well as the animation quality. maybe im simply just sick of the "boring" designs and artstyles animes have nowadays, but i feel like im starting to miss unique worlds and (what others maybe consider) "extravagant" designs. i cant really express myself well, but what i simply mean is that the girls and well all of the aliens were simply eye candy, and tbh that is why i started watching the series too (i need to practice drawing women, but for that i need to be obsessed with a female character,, and i think you see where im going). im pretty sure that my love for melonbread also played a big part in growing fond of the anime

((oh and on a side note, im kind of sad we didnt get a more extravagant fight, or a "bloodier" battle in the end, since im a sucker for a dramatic fight/death))

2026,07,22

"clarity" wont ever stop being an absolute masterpiece, i still zone out and start fantasizing when i hear it

ALSO listen to this dude, im pretty sad hkmori took many of her songs from spotify down, not like i dont have my favs downloaded

2026,07,19

started playing mirrors edge today. i remember how dad used to play it a lot while me and my sister watched him, so you could say it brought back many memories jumping from building to building. honestly i only put in so many hours, but i already feel like im going to finish the game in the next couple weeks.

update: im tweaking im so bad at combat i am going to lose my fucking mind and i love nomad,, icarus too

also at first i sucked at the controls but now im getting used to it:)



also i kind of like faiths older design,,,maybe the hair,,, hmm aaand we have no idea how we got catalyst on our ps, since we only bought the original like 10 years ago